Euphoriaaa (:

tired day.

finally dragged myself out of bed around 2 plus in the afternoon.
figured i could no longer press the snooze button cos i'll end up getting fcuked by my mom if i didnt
go over to gramps today. buhhhhh!
so anyways, took a bus down and half way through the journey, i realize i didnt bring my spec out AGAIN -.-
i was practically half blind throughout the day, how great is that?
as usual, i cut gramps nails, cos there's no one else who would do it, and their eye isint really of great help.
and one thing i really hate about going to their house is that, i became a meal ):
yea, not for gramps of course, but for their BUGS... fucking bed bugs and whatever fuck bugs they are,
NEVER once did they not bite me ): whole leg was biten ):
its just like mosqito bites but is bigger, much bigger. so al these were all over my thighs ( i unfortunately forgot to wear my jeans) and my feet. >:(

so after im done with their nails, im suppose to clear this cardboard cos dad's gonna take it home tonight.
i tell you, the damn thing is filled with THICK layers of dust. and i mean seriously thick.
had such a hard time cleaning up the shit and the itch isnt helping. ROAR!
lucky baby came to my rescue, although i already finish like most of it already and was almost done.
but still, having him beside me cleaning and stuff is great! thanks baby! {;
left gramps place around 5 plus, went for my "breakfast" havent had foood since yesterday evening.
MRT-ed down to town, watched Ninja.A with baby. movie was okay la, not too bad.
not really my type of movie, i dont enjoy seeing people getting choped, having their intestine dig out.
its like bleahhhhhhhhhhh :@

hmm, im tired. gonna bathe soon and maybe sleep early tonight.
GOOD NIGHT WORLD (:

baby's been sucha sweeeeet boy today :]
reach-ed his placed about 2 plus (weather sucked today by the way..)
so i was lying on the sofa, switching from channel to channel, enjoying the show on tv
baby's in the kitchen cooking for me :D
menu is....... bacon pizza, fish nuggets, my favourite brand of hotdogs and hashbrow! <3
aint that sweeeeeeeeeeet, before i could finish my pizza the next dish is served alr!
imma queen today! hee hee.

tomorrow is stay home day!
means i wake up as long as i want! yipee!
cant wait to start work next Thursday, Aretha says i'll be starting to answer calls alr! :\
gotta start memorising and read through my notes again, hope things will tunr out fine
and i wont get those stupid demanding people.
people working there are very nice. hahahaha, very warm and very funny!
though it was my first day there, but they didnt treat me like a new-comer, they're very warm towards me.
hee hee, and my buddy is damn funny too!
will be gym-ing alot since there's a gym there at SPH, and Emily is a regular now
i'll be joining them for gym session! <3
i hope i'll lose weight and grow prettier before CNY comes! hee hee!
new clothes and new everything (:

tra la la ~ im a happy girl ;}

baby's at work ): and im so so so damm bored!!
kindda excited that im starting work tomorrow, so that i wont have to rot at home anymore!
kindda nervous and stuff. hmmmm what should i wear tml??
baby baby, i need more shopping!! :D
im gonna save up alot alot alot alto and work hard losing weight and stuff.
its shop till i drop before CNY! hee hee!
so much things that i want, and i needa work work work.. ):
how i wish money just fall from the sky. ahhahaha. JOKE

im so bored!!! ):
bored to tears........ baby's ignoring me );
playing CS alone, and im just sitting here ranting away...
i would seriously like to start work soon, cos i really cannot take it anymore.
everyday is soooooooooooo boring.
except foor those that i met up with my love of course <3
alright, im going to continue to bore myself to death ): byebye

interview tml at Singapore Press Holdings.
woo! so anxious, i hope i can pass the in terview!!!
then i'll be able to work with Emily! <3
meeting baby later at town, he's gonna do his pp, while i rot beside him.
sigh... im gonna find something to do..

tough day.


everything happen today made me have mixed feelings.
somehow, today is one of the toughest day i had to go through.
i practically fought back my tears for the whole day..

i thought dad was happy for me,
because i found someone i could reply on, someone i included in my future plannings,
i thought he liked him, from the way he talked bout him.
but today, he's like a changed man. he didnt talk like how he use to
he became angry, he begin to question, he spiked me.
how is it possible that a person can change his so fast?
he had doubts of what i told him, he doubt my bf, he doubt his family.
i mean does all these factors really matter?
is it necessary to ask people to check on them?
why is he doing all this to me? why is he breaking my heart?
he didnt believe a single word i told him, why would i wanna lie?
everything is like a question mark. i really dont understand.

took my step sister to the arcade today, and i realise..
compared to this sister of mine, she was much much fortunate then me,
i hate to admit that i was kindda jealous of her.
that she had everything she wanted, everything that i wanted.
that she's got a complete family. that i wasnt this pampered or fortunate.
looking at his face when he smiled so widely to amber, when he was playing
with her at the arcade, and i wondered to myself.
do i have memories of him smiling so happily at me? was i this happy as a kid?
no, the answer is no, no doubt.

i hate this man, this cold blooded man.
that didnt contribute a single bit to my childhood.
that i tried many ways to gain his favour and his attention.
the man that left me suffering, crying and did nothing.







the dreams in which im dying, is the best i've ever had.

O's are over, and im having my break. in time to come, i'll have to work my ass off again ): i've been feeling super lazy to work! and that is not a good thing. who the hell is gonna provide for me? dont wanna take baby's money anymore. im gonna get all pumped up! and off to job interviews i go! :D life's a bore nowdays, i wake up every afternoon without knowing what to do. hmmmmm guess holidays aint that fun actually. :\ but i get to sleep alot! and i mean ALOTTTT. like 12-15 hours almost everyday except when im going out. but i still feel damn tired! thats so horrible! i got a freaking swell on my throat and its freaking me out. later get cancer HOW?? lol. like choi!! i hope its just heaty-ness. gonna mass drink liang teh! alright, i just decided to blog cos im bored and i didnt expect it to be this long either. so yea. im gonna stop here. cos im meeting daddy and step mom later. see ya. *oh btw, im seriously considering if i should cahnge to blogspot. what do u think? (:

i dont understand, im not talking any money from you.
i dont ask anything from you, you dont support me AT ALL.
WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU STILL FINDING FAULTS WITH ME?
you have nothing else better to do? no fucking life?
gosh! you're one hell of a sick bitch all you do all day, is fucking nag and talk non stop.
i cannot stand living with you.
i promise once i get enough money, im outta here STRAIGHT AWAY.
fucking two face bitch. pissed me off TTM.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEAN! <3

met up with joelle, best friend and jean at PS for KFC.
i miss the good old times. must meet up soon again!!! ^^
parted around 8 plus cos they gotta leave.
so me and baby went to watch Sister's keeper, the show is gooooood! (:
i rate it 10/10 story line is perfect. No regrets watching it!
alright, i gotta go talk to baby now, shall blog tml agn!

much love!

well im back (:

i was feeling fcuking exhausted when we're on our way home.
and the stupid bus took damnmnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn long to come!!
so we eventually decided to take a bus to queenstown and train down to baby's house.
i took a 5 mins nap in baby's arm, and woke up thinking why the hell arent we there yet.
cos the journey is only suppose to take 4 busstops or so.
and that muddle head bf told me he thought we were on the bus that goes to his house.
being sleepy and stuff i was SUPER pissed off with him!
so we got down the bus before it hit the expressway. and found out that
actually the busstop we alight had a direct bus that goes to his house. HAHA.
good thing that he actually is muddle headed sometimes! (:

bus ride was sucky cos we didnt get to sit down, and we're both super sleepy.
and for some absurd reason we starting  play on the bus. LOL
causing alot of attention.. we just laughed non stop! and it was really fun ^^
but something stupid i saaid cause a major quarrel ):
guess i say things without thinking, without considering his feelings.
i didnt know how much i actually love him till then
for the first time in my life, i didnt care bout my image or how people look at me
i just cried in his arms, sobbing so badly with him hugging me so tight.
he didnt utter a word, he just hug me and cry too.
so in the rain were a silly couple, crying and hugging each other with all their strength.
i knew i couldnt lose him, but i didnt wanna lose my pride.
silly but true, i really love him, even more then i love myself
that is what i learnt that rainy night. that no matter what happens he will come back for me,
and i'll find my way back to him. and he's really my silly silly bf <3

oh my oh my, i am sooooooooooooooo fcuking tired!! >.<
had only 4 hours of sleep from last night.
tagged along with my parents for supper at geylang, we had dim sums! yummy!
dad was kindda in a good mood, so we went for car ride around orchard
went to visit my uncle's pub and drove to MOUNT FABER.
HAHAHAHA. fucking "romantic" lol. stuipd piece of shit.
i got so damn tired i drop drop dead on my bed the moment im home. z.Z

baby came over this morning!
but was kind of a wasted trip ): we're suppose to have the fabulous mee pok at the market dwnstairs.
but for some reason, the whole market is closed -.-
so we bus-ed down to bugis, and it was too early for SimLimTower,
we went  to macs for breakfast (:
job hunting through the Recruits section, and found this Starhub promoter job. i'll continue on this later.
left macs around 12 plus for SLT! had like lots of fun there. hahahahah
shopped around with baby, from shop to shop, looking for the best bargain..
BUT WE GOT CONNED BY THIS DAMN UNCLE $#^$&@w^$#^.
i was trying so hard to save as much as possible for bf, and ta ma de this uncle conned 4 dollars from me lor!
got kindda emo after that. LOL. like hello? you're going up down up down the shoping center
looking for best buy then you got con, the feeling not shiok can!?

like any noonerly nooner bf, my baby brought me shopping at Bugis! hehe hee hee.
i bought a new bag pack like finally!! :D and some accersories (:
train-ed down to bukit timah for the starhub interview.... all went well i guess?
hope i'll be able to get the job ): i dont wanna depend on my baby anymore!
it was raining so damn $%^$%$#@ heavily, so we went to this hawker for lunch.
WE WERE STARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRVING!!
ate wanton noodles, and i tell you. the wanton mee is GOOOODDD. fucking nice la!
people who stay near by should seriously go try. its at Bukit Timah lane 1. i freaking forgot the address -.-
take 195 from queensway mrt station, stop after you see ikea, u'll see this furniture shop
behind the busstop, then got this provision shop, follow all the way you'll see this coffee shop,
follow the path you'll see this hawker, the wanton mee is smack right in the middle! :D

and yar, the story damn long. and at this point of time. IM SLEEPING IN FRONT OF THE COMP NOW!
CONTINUE TML LA OK. NIGHTS!

woke up around 1 plus in the afternoon today..
feeling lazy and tired as usual, i cabbed down to baby's house.
we made spaghetti today! first attempt, and it doesnt really taste good.
but we still manage to finish it. hahahah, this only applied to baby =p
watched ANTM together after washing up. totally <3 Nicole!

bused down with baby to meet up with my mom in the evening at Hougang Inter,
took another bus to street21 for dinner at this shity coffee shop, and the food made me lost all my appetite.
super disappointed, i didnt even finish my rice ):
so after that not-so-nice dinner, went for a lil bit of shopping.
then bused back to Hougang Inter, and mom had this crazy idea to bus to Changi airport.
so poor baby companied me allllllll the way there despite the crazy journey home ):
he's really the best baby ever (: me is gonna love him alot alot and for a long long time! <3

so here am, in front of my comp relaxing after a tired day out
poor baby is still half way home!!!! ):
sigh..... life's a bore without him around ):

im utterly bored!!!!! >:(
baby is taking his own sweet time bathing and stuff
and im stuck here with my comp! with absolutely nothing to do on Fb
nothing to watch on youtube. argh!!!!!
im actually suppose to be studying now, but well...
15 hours of sleep made me VERY VERY restless hmmmmm (:

baby's been very kiddish today! ahhahahaha.
acting like a 5 year old kid (:
but, thats what i love bout him! hee.
sometimes i get so so angry with him, but  he has his own ways of making me laugh!
and that made me more angry with myself. hahahah
me is love you silly love! (:

i have so so much to do after my o levels. and i sure am looking forward to it!
should i switch back to Blogger agn? ):
i kindda miss blogger. boooooooooo!

my brain refuses to register any shit at any time of the day...  ):
help me...

"Relative Atomic Mass is the number of times the mass of one atom of an element is greather then 1/12 the mass of one carbon 12 atom."

took me like 20 mins to memorise this. -.-

finally, the house is quiet and peaceful (:
mom's off to bed already, rare that she sleeps so early these few weeks
but oh well, its good anyway. no one to be nagging by my ears :D

Math is tomorrow and im really really scared.
i hope my efforts and money paid off,
will just do my best like what baby said :\
positive thinking is whats gonna calm me down now.
gonna wake up early morning to do another paper
before going for exams. (:

wish my luck people! will update bout how i do tml <3

comp's fixed!!! (:
yay, dont have to wait till i get to baby's laptop to get on FB!

had baby's advance birthday BBQ last night, wont really say that its awesome for me.
oh well, baby's the star (: as long as he enjoyed himself, its all worthwhile!
had a great time spending time alone with him on his bed talking :D
there's alot of things i want to do and want to have ):
but thats gonna wait.. ): o's just started and i cant wait for it to end...
hmmm, but before i know it, i'll be telling you guys my last paper is coming. muahahaha.
then it'll be PLAY PLAY PLAY AND MORE PLAYING!

i need to fucking keep my weight and appetite in check. >:(
im abit drowsy... zzz i need to slp agn.
maggie says i have symptoms of diabetes, ohmygosh.
alright, time for some love with my baby now! <3

nights people.....

stress!!!! ):
but everything is getting much more organised.
and with my baby supporting me, life's even better!!! <3
been busying with tuition and pass years papers...
Science prac is coming... booo! (:

allwhite, later!

hello people of the world.... its meeeee. angel... again...
there's a psyco beside me, and she's really weird.
cos you know, shecannot get over the fact that there's a WWW in an email acct.
and she's whinning about it... and she says's that her cheebye is itching AGAIN.
she's crazy. im serious....; my life's like in danger sitting next to me... O.o
I'll show you her photo soon okay? <3 much loves ~



im at heather's working place btw (*:
its her last day at work today.. so yar.



psyco : im not gonna talk to you ever agn ~ ~ *singing*
me : what are you doing??? (she holding on to my phone...)
psyco : i dont know....
me : see! you just talked to me!
psyco : snook for 2 secs.... AND BURST OUT LAUGHING. HAHAHAHHA